I’m weary of spending them frustrated and uptight. I’m tired of giving in to the demands of life. And I’m making a day paused. To capture the beauty with them. To hunker down and play. To dance giddy in the living room. To crawl in bed for the worlds longest hug. To grasp tightly to that which I soon will no longer grip.
My kids, all 3, for the first time ever all head off to school next week. I’m trying to live up these last few days. Trying to hold tight to the good. To capture every ray of light. Squeezing out every bit of fun. All this will one day just be memories long gone.
“God help me to see this season this quickly passing and cherish it.”
My blog could potentially be existing for a very long time. And my kids hopefully will too but these will be my last few days with them until this chapter ends and a new one begins.
– Gone are the days of sleepless nights, toddler temper tantrums, little chubby legs. –
– Coming are the days of independence and making wise choices. And I pray growing in grace to live a life fully devoted to God. –
So as a chapter ends and a new one begins I feel the emotions of the choices I’ve made, the sacrifices I’ve made, the life skills I may not have taught well enough, the privilege of being a momma.
It all comes crashing like a big wave coming down.
The good with the bad.
The happy with the sad.
The worst with the best.
The long days and the short days.
The screaming and the cuddling.
The teaching and the joy of watching what’s been taught come alive.
I’m not going to lie I’m a bit anxious. But God’s got it. He’s not going to let me down. There may be bumps in the road. There may be adjustments needed. But nothing is permanent.
Thank you for letting me off the hook this week as I may be absent for awhile. I may just be sitting on the couch snuggling their necks and crying some weapy tears.
God, I give it all to you. I surrender this next phase of motherhood to you. I can only get through this knowing that You have the master plan. That you hold the keys to their future. Not me.
I commit this school year to you.
“Here I am
Down on my knees again
Surrendering all
Surrendering allFind me here
Lord as You draw me near
Desperate for You
Desperate for You
I surrender”
Ashley | The Recipe Rebel says
I’ve been finding my “holiday time” has been so filled with the blog and trying to get way ahead of thing, but I’ve been trying to focus a lot more of my energy on friends and family and my little girl before the hectic school season. Thanks for this Melanie!
Melanie says
It is important to remember to focus our attention on that which is quickly passing us by. Thanks for stopping by Ashley!
Shashi @ runninsrilankan says
Melanie – God most definitely has got it – something I hold onto as my daughter gets ready to begin driving -on her own! I don’t know if it’s just me, but the changing “seasons” or “Chapters” are so much more apparent since I’ve been a parent.
Melanie says
Wow, Shashi! I can’t believe she’s getting ready to drive. Much love to you as you embrace her new abilities!
Ashley @ My Midwest Table says
Thinking of you, friend! I’m savoring my oldest’s last year before school starts. It’s crazy what Kindergarteners are expected to know these days! But instead of worrying, I’m going to embrace the moments I have. The little moments because they are the best moments. 🙂
Hope your kids have a great first day and that you do, too!
Chris @ Shared Appetite says
Amen. Asheley and I are going through something right now that we need to constantly be reminded… God’s got this. He will never fail us. He’s so much bigger than any of our problems. We just need to give it to Him. Thanks for the reminder Melanie. It’s much appreciated 🙂
marcie says
Very nicely written post, Melanie. I’ve been finding myself very sentimental lately — I pretty much always am as my kids get ready to start yet another year of school. It’s another reminder that they’re older, and I wish they were small again sometimes! Your kids are adorable, and I hope they transition into the new school year very smoothly!