I am Worn Out Waiting

I am worn out. Waiting. Waiting on God to come through. His Word says he will. But I’m tired.

Do my prayers even matter to God?

We’ve all been there at some point in our lives, right? That prayer request that we’ve prayed morning, noon and night. On good days and bad days. At home, at church or outdoors. We’ve prayed it so many times that we wonder why we keep repeating it.

I recently was reading through Psalm 119. And one word promise just kept repeating itself. So I began to pay attention and circle all those words of promise (promises, promised). I noticed a theme that the Psalmist David was trying to portray. God’s word is full of promises.

In verse 41 it’s a promise of salvation.

In verse 49 and 50 it signifies hope and revival.

In verse 58 it’s all about mercy.

In verse 65 it’s about the many good things he has done for us.

In verse 76 it’s His unfailing love that comforts us.

In verse 107 it’s the promise of restoration.

In the Psalm 119 of the New Living Translation of the bible, (the one I read) the word ‘promise’ is mentioned 19 times, if I counted right.

I then started noticing another common theme. One word kept bouncing to light. – Obey (obedience,obeys,obeyed)

I don’t think it’s a coincidence that these words were used more than any other word in the longest Psalm. Do you?

I believe God is speaking to me LOUD and CLEAR through my recent revelation.

His promises are based on obedience in FAITH.

This morning I was praying over a prayer request that I’ve had for years. One that I make a priority for a while to pray about and then before I know it I’m just complaining instead.

God’s word says Philippians 2:14 Do everything without complaining and arguing. So am I being obedient in the little things?

Can I really expect the promises when I can’t even seem to shut my mouth?

Can I really expect the promises of a better tomorrow when I can’t see past my own clouded perception?

Can I really expect an answer to my prayers when I’m stuck in yesterday’s discontent and today’s impatience?

Can I really anticipate a TODAY of richness, love and hope when I’m thinking about  ‘I wish I had’   AND ‘When will this ever change?’

And God whispers, “What about faith?” Is it really faith if you don’t start believing until you see some action or results? Isn’t faith the evidence of things unseen? ( Hebrews 11:1)

I’m growing and learning day by day. But I still usually expect to see something in order to rest in the promises of God’s word. But that’s not the way it works. My hope should be in HIM alone.

Psalm 119 continues to speak to me:

vs 147 I rise early,before the sun is up; I cry out for help and put my hope in your words.

vs 114 You are my refuge and my shield; your word is my source of hope.

vs 81 I am worn out waiting for your rescue, but I have put my hope in your word. My eyes are straining to see your promises come true.

So thankful that he’s faithful in reminding me of my need for me. That he’s patient with me as I wait on His promises.

Love and blessings,

Melanie

xo